i've had a lot of strange dreams the past couple of nights. on monday night, i dreamt that i was at stanford or mit (i'm not sure which, cuz i said something about getting two degrees at the school, and i haven't done that at either) for some event. i was staying at a large dorm. at some point, i locked the keys inside of my room, and i went down to the lobby to see if someone could help me. the three people, presumably students, told me that it was against policy to let me into the room. i freaked out and started to yell at them. (this was when i went into the tirade about getting two degrees at the school and how disgusted i was at the lack of hospitality to an alumna.) it was really bizarre. i don't usually yell at people. i can't remember the last time i did out of anger. i was really disturbed when i woke up from the dream. the funk lasted all day.

last night, as i was going home from a movie (the lives of others), i started to get really emotional, and i'm not sure why. maybe i was just really tired.

then last night, i had more strange dreams. fortunately, they didn't put me in a funk.

in one of my dreams last night, i was staying in a *huge* mansion. it seemed that i had rented it with some friends (i'm not sure who) for a big party. as we explored the house, we kept finding new areas, one of which was this enormous ballroom in the basement. it had beautiful floors, high ceilings, and french doors around the perimeter. we must have been on a tour with the person who had rented it to us, as she indicated that it was off limits. we were disappointed.

at some point towards the end of the party, i was sitting with someone (again, i'm not sure who it was except that he was male), and this fat pigeon started walking towards me. it looked straight at me, and although i tried to deter it from getting close to me, it wouldn't stop approaching. it wasn't really doing anything except staring and walking, but i didn't want it to touch me. i couldn't stop it. it was annoying.

then i woke up.

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i've been fairly busy lately. work is starting to ramp up and i have a feeling i'll be busy through june. socially, i've been more active than i would have anticipated. souris and silvio were in town last week; they stayed with me. we had a bbq during their visit. silvio and i went to see the vivienne westwood exhibit at the deyoung. it was fabulous. i had friends over for dinner a few nights ago, and i was ambitious in my menu. it was exhausting, but i really enjoyed it, too.

i've been out to a few new places - district, amelie, and cha-ya - and a few old favorites - absinthe, oola, cav, and tokyo go go.

the other night, i went to the symphony to see the eroica trio perform beethoven's triple concerto. it was great to see live classical music; i hadn't been in a long time. it sort of made me want to play again. i haven't picked up my violin in months.

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this weekend should be fairly mellow. i've got little to nothing planned, and i'm looking forward to the break. maybe i'll actually get back on my bike.

my mom is visiting for a couple days at the end of next week. she hasn't seen my apartment yet. i can't remember the last time she was in sf. i think i'll take her to the moma to see the picasso exhibit, and i remembered that it's women's day on friday at the kabuki springs and spa. we went there once during one of her previous visits. i haven't been in a long while. maybe we'll go to the market on saturday or just play it by ear. it'll be good for her to get away for a bit, and i'm looking forward to her visit.

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i feel like time is passing very quickly these days. maybe it's cuz we just finished up a short month. maybe it's cuz i'm getting older.